Stripped

The buzz around Shutter Sisters this week has been all about positive self talk. Feeling alive. Feeling empowered. I am trying. I really am.

But sometimes pain and the hurting¬† just feel right.¬† So if you don’t mind I am going to mourn for a bit today.

This week I miss her. A lot.

Have you ever gotten that raw mind numbing feeling? Where you’re just going through the motions but not really all quite there. Where every little negative comment or statement seems to set you off into an angry tirade or a bawling mess?¬† Where your rational mind is thrown out the window?

That’s me this week.

Longing for her. Wishing for the pain to end. Waiting.

Maybe its the weather. It’s been rainy. And gray. The seasons are changing. You can feel it. You can smell it. You can see it.

I feel a lot like the trees this week.

Stripped.

Delicate.

Raw.

Hopefully the sun comes out soon so I can be lifted out of this funk. It’s been an exhausting week.

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Sarah B.October 29, 2009 - 4:24 pm

The picture is beautiful. Allow yourself to mourn. It will get easier in time, but she will always be there with you. You have an extraordinarily beautiful angel watching over you and your husband.

curiousillusionOctober 29, 2009 - 6:03 pm

Awww I'm sorry Beryl. I can't even imagine how you must feel.. :(

triciabOctober 30, 2009 - 7:05 am

I am so sad for you today. Sad for a pain that I can not imagine. Giving a voice to your pain can be healing. I pray for your peace today. I pray for a wholeness to fill you in a way that you would never imagine. Thank you for being so brave as to share your journey here.XO*Tricia

rachaelOctober 30, 2009 - 8:29 am

raw is beautiful. broken is where the magic is born. i believe that with all of my heart. thank you for sharing! a little gift for you: http://rachmadlove.blogspot.com/2009/10/vulnera

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